All my life I have been very obese. I was bullied for it as a child and being fat, Jewish, clever and from a broken home in the worst inner city school in Sheffield you can only imagine! As I grew older I grew fatter. Always hiding behind a jolly exterior. I went to uni and became a lawyer. Unfortunately I ended up in an abusive marriage and had to flee for my safety. I was still fat.
I decided to lose weight. Eventually becoming vegetarian as I thought it would save on calories. Unfortunately as I lost more weight I became addicted to the weight loss and also developed an exercise addiction. Things went from bad to worse and I became bulimic eventually becoming borderline anorexic. I was down from a dress size 22 to 8. My weight was in the healthy range as all the working out with weights kept the actual figures on the scale ok but I had no fat on me.
I then decided in order to lose more weight I would “try” being vegan. I found it pretty easy to make the transition from veggie to vegan as the only thing I really had was dairy and eggs. The eating disorder speaks louder than the logical mind so cutting everything out was relatively easy.
My two dogs are my absolute Angels and they are my reason d’être and I would do anything for them. I volunteer at the local animal sanctuary and absolutely adore animals and can’t bear to see them suffer in any way. I therefore started looking at veganism in a different way – from the animals viewpoint. It was a lightbulb moment. I focused on animal welfare as opposed to myself and the amount of calories I was or wasn’t consuming. So far it’s working! I am in good health and the exercise obsession is still live but my eating is better than it’s ever been. I really really enjoymy vegan diet. I am always cooking up new recipes and cook delicious treats such as banana cake and rice pud! I am what my husband calls a “selective vegan” in that I am too afraid yet to add any oil to food or to have anything highly calorific. I don’t eat chocolates or sweets ice cream etc but I am doing so so well. My GP is delighted and champions a vegan diet for anyone. I am fit, healthy, and at 54 years old in the best shape ever thanks to being vegan.
I have even managed to go out for a meal for the first time in a decade (vegan of course!)
I love taking photos of the food I have cooked for myself and posting them on Facebook. My friends who know of my past struggle are always delighted to see how I am getting better and eating well and they always ” like” my photos.
I credit my two dogs, my love of animals and my passion for veganism for saving me. This might sound evangelical but when you have a daily battle with an eating disorder it’s wonderful to have a lifesaver!
I shall never not be vegan.